Unpleasantness-Pleasantness

Yesterday I had to follow through...and it was the epitome of the "double-edged sword." In essence, to be true to myself I had to confront the untruths of another. Normally, I would shy away from, in fact avoid altogether, a situation of this nature, and have done so repeatedly in my past much to my detriment, however, the pain and constriction I was feeling had become prohibitive. Over the course of my life, I have taken on many roles - some positive, some really quite negative. Of late, I am making an attempt to shed, one by perilous one, the negative precepts to which I cling. In most instances this is a completely personal journey and one of Everest difficulty, but yesterday was an exception. I took responsibility for the way I felt when I was treated shabbily. Maybe I should have continued in my Christian tack of turning the other cheek, but things were beginning to fester.

My initial reaction was to feel weightless, relieved, boyant (see previous post) and that should have been that. However my old knee-jerk, self-abasement tapes start playing and I abuse myself for hurting another for my own sanity.

And so we return again in this blog to the issues of honesty and integrity. And, once again I say no martyr am I, but our primary directive as sentient beings, I believe, is to cherish each and every other human. To respect him, to treat him with humanity and to be non-judgemental, and to offer our very best. This is the ideal.

So much for soap-boxing...let's move on to some comedy-jokes.......